My story. My healing.

It’s been almost two years since my trip to Ireland. That was a pivotal life moment for me. That trip allowed for full recovery of my central nervous system and my lymphatic system. Up until that time, I’d spent 7 long months in excruciating nerve pain where my legs were almost double their size from inflammation and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it.

I couldn’t stand for any length of time, had to drag my worst leg to walk, couldn’t kneel at all, and had to manually lift my legs into the car to drive or ride. I had no peace with the pain. I slept on the couch all those months, legs propped on pillows, ice packs on both sides of my knees, Ted hose for painful swelling, and hooked full strength to a TENS unit in order to get a bit of rest. These units deliver shocks to help with nerve pain.

I had surgery on one knee for minor meniscus tearing, which made things much worse. The other leg was just as swollen, but the MRI showed the knee was completely normal. It did show Lyme Disease. I did not take the antibiotic to treat it because the Lyme was old and my body was so short of energy that I knew it would never handle another thing that killed the little bit of good bacteria I still had.

I tried soooo many natural supplements and went to sooooo many healers and energy people. Good people. Super good at their jobs. I even traveled to Arizonia to a master healer. I’d feel the energy (electricity) from the sessions and the pain would stop. Once home, it all came back. This taught me I had an electrical problem.

Our human body runs on magnetic electricity. That’s why when someone is having a heart attack, they get the paddles out and charge your heart with electric current. My energy was so low that I thought I was close to dying. Other energy workers who didn’t know me confirmed my fear. I was close to dying. You can’t support a body without the electrical flow.

You can imagine how low and down in the dumps I felt. No sleep. No energy. Lots of pain. And I didn’t know why. I’d been pretty healthy my whole life other than oddities since childhood that had no cure like chronic fatigue, digestive issues, borderline anemia, and so on, but never a head cold or flu in my adult years. In my blood work, only my sodium was off. I have great vital signs and really high good cholesterol.

So, what was wrong with me? Why couldn’t I get better? Why couldn’t anyone help me? What was I missing?

At my wits end and so sick of being sick, I went to Ireland. Booked the trip for six weeks and took out extra life insurance in case I died over there. Ireland is the land of my ancestry. It’s steeped in magic and tied to the natural world. Every tree is a spirit, every rock a master, every stone circle a gateway to another world. This is the energy that courses through my blood. My hope was to find a person who would know how to help me.

Instead, what I found was myself. And I healed. Almost instantly. And it only took 3 weeks, not 6. And then I came home a different person full of joy I’d never truly experienced before. I came back me. The authentic me.

What I learned is I had a fear inside me I was harboring. I was afraid to let people down. I was afraid to choose me first. I was afraid that I was a failure if I didn’t do what I thought people wanted me to do. I was afraid people would be mad at me if I didn’t do what they wanted. I was afraid to not be liked. I was afraid I wasn’t enough. I was afraid and didn’t know it.

Oh sure, I always had this little anxiety inside me, especially when I laid down to sleep. I’d feel it in my chest area and sometimes my heart would feel pain. Not pain like a heart attack, but more like I might have to defend myself or that I needed to keep one eye open in case…

I never knew what the “in case” was though.

In Ireland, in a very normal mundane way, my shift happened. I went from the people pleasing fear that I didn’t know I had, to facing this debilitating belief and ending it. It happened while I was eating ice cream in an ice cream parlor.

Crazy right? One moment I was eating ice cream, and the next I was being emotionally triggered by someone—a trigger unlike any other. I was experiencing such pain as I’d really never experienced before. It stunned me into complete stillness for probably the first time in my life. My mental mind chatter stopped. Everything seemed like it was happening in slow motion. I could hear people, but they sounded a long way away. All I could do was feel. My chest felt like it was exploding. I didn’t know what was happening to me. I just felt. And it was so intense and so big.

Within 30 seconds the feeling started dissolving, the pain dissipating. The calm voice in my head that I know to be my wisdom then said, there’s nothing I need do to help the person who had initially triggered me. They only want you to listen, witness them as they are.

And that was it. My surroundings came back to normal and the person quit talking. They almost looked like they were shaking something off as well, like they’d just come out of a stupor.

But I was changed. And for good. I felt enormous joy bubble inside me that I’d never known before. All fear was completely gone. Fear that I didn’t know I had. By facing it and going through it, the fear was no longer using my energy. No more anxiety. The next morning when I woke, all my pain and leg swelling was gone and it’s never come back. It was a full cure. I understood that the fear belief was just what my body was holding as an energetic placeholder, probably from childhood or longer, that just needed me to look at and understand. Once I did, my body automatically healed. I booked my ticket home.

Our body is the perfect builder. It does not do the thinking. Our mind and emotions are the architects of our world. What the mind thinks the body feels and builds based on this blueprint. We must ask ourselves when things seemingly go “wrong” with our body or in our life, why are we expecting someone or something outside of us to fix what we feel inside?

There is no such thing as a neutral thought. Everything you think is creative. The power has always been within you. I understand and appreciate the confusion we all face about this. It’s not like we’re trying to be sick or have a hard life. But the reason I shared my experience is to nudge you into allowing yourself to explore your own power and not give it away to anyone for any reason.

Sometimes that takes a bit of courage at first to get out of your own way and try something new. This world works through cause and effect. Find your cause (the root of your experience) and you change your effect. I am certain you hold the key to unlocking everything within yourself. That’s why I offer the specific classes and sessions I do. They are all geared to shift your perspective so you can get to the root of your inner fear and a false sense of who you are.

What happened to me was perfect. I’m no longer a slave to fear and false identity. At my lowest, most intense moment of suffering, I learned I was the strongest I could ever be to end it. I was no longer tied to any thought, nor could I be separated from my true wisest being. This experience has brought me nothing but peace and joy, and a desire to help anyone I can to find their own way forward by going inward.  

Breathwork is one such tool.

If you’re interested, I’m offering breathwork class again on Saturday, September 6 at 10 am in the beautiful salt room at Pure Serenity in Hastings, MN. Breathwork is all you. No one can breathe for you but you. And it is such a profoundly, intimate way to connect with your body and let it heal whatever is holding it back. So many people find their authentic inner selves in this work. Click the link below to sign up if this sounds like a way that can help you.

And as always, I’m available for individual sessions. All sessions include deep energy support and loving intuitive guidance to heal emotional/physical pain and confusion so you can live your best life. Click here to schedule.
 
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